Saturday, August 18, 2007

I'm back?

I haven't written for more than a year. Except for cranking out at least two stories a day for a newspaper and maybe two diary entries, I haven't taken the time to write and I most certainly haven't revisited my blog.

I stopped for a few reasons. Among them being ultimately consumed by the madness that is a new job where I had to get used to the breakneck pace and overcome the massive exhaustion and stress I left with each day. I also was trying a bit to fit in, I am afraid, and was a bit concerned my mindless online drivel would get discovered and I would be ridiculed. Am I in high school?

I also was feeling like I had nothing to say. That assumes I ever did, but at least when I start this blog, I had a point. Traveling. Hm, now I am pretty much settled. I also never really came to grips with finding a balance between pouring out way too personal information about myself and my friends and then keeping it anonymous enough for people to connect a bit.

From time to time, I would get e-mail updates from the StatCounter program that tells me if anyone has accidentally stumbled upon my site in the last month - usually not - and what brought them there. Nine times out of ten the reader got here by searching phrases like "you know you're in the South when" and "Boons Farm" - two things I apparently wrote about that brought in the most traffic.

Finally, I have been waiting for a point. A theme. A reason to have a damn blog in the first place, and something original and clever and new that would bring in readers - because, c'mon let's be real here, every writer wants to be read. I have been mulling things over, waiting for said theme to come to me and the cleverness to pull me to the computer and enlighten the world.

That never came. Or it hasn't yet. But I do miss the writing. And for now I will tell myself that I don't care if I don't have a point or readers or really anything good or unique to say. I just want to say it. Perhaps a theme will emerge and I can start a new fresh blog with a relevant title and readers will clamor to get to their screens to read me and I will become famous and people will talk about it and send the link around to their friends. Perhaps.